Sometimes I’m guilty of forgetting that Miss P has only just turned two. She’s so confident and always seems to take things in her stride but I need to remember she’s still such a little person.
The last couple of weeks have brought such huge changes to her little world and though outwardly she’s handling it well, night time tells another story.
Miss P has often had nightmares. From a very young age she would thrash and moan and, if we woke her, she would be scared and it would take a lot to settle her back down. Nothing bad has ever happened to her so I can only assume it is purely down to her brain processing things whilst she sleeps.
Since she started preschool the nightmares have increased. After an initial settled hour or so she will start calling out for me. She’s still asleep and always seems to be searching for me; she is lost and can’t find her mummy. It breaks my heart every single time and often tears are rolling down my cheeks as I sit in the dark, stroke her hair and sing her back into a settled slumber.
It’s obvious where this stems from. Clearly, though she loves preschool and doesn’t bat an eyelid when I leave her, there is part of her that worries that I won’t come and get her at lunchtime. During the day the only sign is a need for extra cuddles, the sudden wrapping of her arms around my legs when I’m washing up and an increased desire to sit on my lap and “read mummy”.
But the advantages are also clear to see. Though she is still quiet whilst there, her speech has exploded at home and it amazes me to hear her say words that I haven’t taught her, little phrases that she has picked up from someone else. Her tantrums seem to be lessening, mainly now purely because she is overtired. She seems to be growing up by the second, and as much as it saddens me at times it’s also wonderful to see.
A lot of change for a little person. But positive change and I know that we’ll be able to chase her worries away.